in the middle of the night

the sleep doesn't always come as silently and softly as it should.
some nights the brain just refuses to relax.
it just decides to play over the bad memories and throws in scenarios of fresh fears...
wondering, storming, just making a mess very hard to solve. what if ... what if.... the wrongs.. the guilt... what if everything in the life from here will keep getting on worse? what if i'm lost forever?
it's like a gasp never leaving the body but its curb is building a lethal pressure inside. the expression that could define these feelings would be like a lifesaver 'cause the mind is exploding. the unease, the squirm, what are they doing to me? where would it end.. .. if it would?

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Being in last second and last third of semester sucks for an engineering student. Caught between the uncertainties of pursuing further studies, or getting a job, having to study harder to make up for all those f---ed up semesters and trying to get the most out of college days takes a toll. When i started college i thought i would be able to have a clear idea of what i would want to do rest of my life by the time i reach the final years. But now, i'm not so sure. i am at a crossroads from where every path seems to lead to an unknown future. The only thing that i can be sure of is that i would know if i'm going to enjoy doing something or not. h That sounds so easy, doesn't it? find what you love and do it!. sigh. If only things were that easy. Well, i'm just an inspiration away. Right now the best advice i can give to myself is this.

happy remaining-college-days !!

If you were looking for a sign THIS IS IT

Go live your life the way you want to.

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Sultry Days

Sultry Days by Shobha Dé
My rating: 2 of 5 stars

i'd give it 2.5/5 stars.
it seemed quite an interesting read in the starting. God (which was a nickname for Deb) was a character that amazed me and gripped me in the start, but as the story progresses this character gets lost somewhere in less interesting and more repulsing characters and eventually becomes one of them.
it goes splendidly till the first four chapters but after that i just dragged myself in hope to experience that 'thing' which had gripped me in the starting. i was disappointed.


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The Marriage Plot

The Marriage Plot by Jeffrey Eugenides
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

Though it ended abruptly, i enjoyed it thoroughly. The writing is engaging and the details never seem to be ‘too much’. It is no thrill but it is a page turner. The interesting turn of events that take place in lives of 3 Brown University Graduates are narrated as if the author knew exactly where to drop the story and take up another line and then exactly where to pick it up again. It sounds befuddling but one has to read the book to know.


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Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!

Merry Christmas and happy holidays!!

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2011 is on the verge of ending and i'll be starting the new year with lots of hopes.
 2011 was an year of ups and downs for me - academically, emotionally and philosophically. There were things that i am thankful for and there were things i wish i could go back in time and change. What this whole year essentially taught me is this:

1.I've GOT to figure myself out. I need to be the person i want to be. And this is high time i stopped caring about what other people think. Society and its conflicting views aren't going to get me anywhere i'd rather be.
2. People are nicer than you think and if you are nice to them too, life goes along better than imagined.
3. I need to take more risks.
4. There is no reason i shouldn't be happier than i am :)

I hope everyone a wonderful 2012 awaiting !!!

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The Razor's Edge

The Razor's Edge by W. Somerset Maugham
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

it was a pleasure to read this book, the style of writing is pleasant without being much flowery.. the characters are tastefully described and explored as the story progresses and the narrative has the charm of someone very intimate recounting a life incident with all the magic of story telling.



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