I Have A Foolish Heart

this is something straight from the pages of my personal diary

"...Infatuation, attraction, feelings.. why do they even exist? Humans could function so much better without them. Intellect would've gotten priority and appearance wouldn't have existed. World could have been spared so much drama...."

" .. isn’t that what I wanted? For him to hate me so that I could get over him? I AM pretty much over him.. but there is still that dull ache in my heart whenever  I see him or think of him… if only he and his world could vanish somewhere far away from mine, I could’ve been then able to convince myself into believing that perhaps he was a figment of my imagination, he didn’t really exist.  Except that it’s not so easy..  our worlds do coincide sometimes, it’s inevitable to stumble by into each other now and then..and on such occasions it is hard to keep the heartbeat from rising, to act cool and pretend that he doesn’t exist... "

".. Oh damn you stupid heart! Don’t you know, you little innocent, naïve thing? It will lead you nowhere but into a sea of hurt, sadness, disappointment, pain and it would ache so sweetly and sadly that you won’t want to come    of it, even if it cuts you apart. That’s just the thing about love."

Okay For Now

my goodreads review

Okay for Now by Gary D. Schmidt
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

so honest, so funny and so heartbreaking.

Terrific.

This book deserves to be placed right next to the copy of 'the catcher in the rye' on my shelf. it is so good.


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what i felt while reading this book:
It is about a fourteen year old American well it doesn’t really matter. He is a boy whose fathers works in paper mills, is short tempered and quick with his hands. This boy gets beat by his brothers and his mothers gets bullied by his father. He moves to a new place called Marysville. The narrative is so honest, funny and heartbreaking. You feel some of Doug’s struggle rubbing off on you. A teenage boy trying to do what he wants, trying to steal moments in pictures and errands despite all the bad, crappy things he has to go through. It is not inspirational but how can it fail to inspire? It did give me a push. About the fact that I’m not the only one who’s got life on the rough side. Good things CAN filter though all the obstacles and shine on you. If you just let it.