About me

i was just reading what this section on the right hand side. whoa. boy, it really needs an edit. i had written it about 2 years ago. some of the things in there don't define me anymore. things have changed or i would say, I've grown up in some ways. my first impulse on reading this 'about me' was to scratch everything out write a big AWKWARD on top of it, in red. but that impulse lasted about 2 seconds.
i don't feel that i am as fragile and vulnerable as i was before. i am definitely not in a 'well of depression' nor i was when i wrote it. it was a difficult time in my life, it hard to cope up with life and i was just really, really sad. but that time has passed and now I've learnt not to expect a lot from life and to do everything with a bucket-full of hope and everything turns out alright. in the end. if it doesn't, i just keep waiting for the end.
i don't feel that i am 'ambitious pursuer' anymore either. i try to do my best in things and enjoy doing it while it lasts.
i am 'a compassionate friend' but i don't often tell my friends or show them how much they actually matter to me. i'm awkward that way but i am there by the side of people who are true and mean well.
the rest is slightly off the mark but still true. it reminds me of what i thought of myself back then. they are very small facets of my personality, the rest of the million small things: my flaws, insecurities, strengths, abilities, manners, habits, passions, the things that are still a mystery to me, they are stitched together by good intentions to make me.
for all we know, i'm just an awkward, quiet girl who dreams the impossible dreams, loves to write and also happens to be the biggest procrastinator in the world.

have you eaten silver lately?

how cool is this shit! edible pray paint in metallic colors....this is the best way to troll guests at this Holi. (lol, jk).
 

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And yeah

in the middle of the night

the sleep doesn't always come as silently and softly as it should.
some nights the brain just refuses to relax.
it just decides to play over the bad memories and throws in scenarios of fresh fears...
wondering, storming, just making a mess very hard to solve. what if ... what if.... the wrongs.. the guilt... what if everything in the life from here will keep getting on worse? what if i'm lost forever?
it's like a gasp never leaving the body but its curb is building a lethal pressure inside. the expression that could define these feelings would be like a lifesaver 'cause the mind is exploding. the unease, the squirm, what are they doing to me? where would it end.. .. if it would?

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work

 

Being in last second and last third of semester sucks for an engineering student. Caught between the uncertainties of pursuing further studies, or getting a job, having to study harder to make up for all those f---ed up semesters and trying to get the most out of college days takes a toll. When i started college i thought i would be able to have a clear idea of what i would want to do rest of my life by the time i reach the final years. But now, i'm not so sure. i am at a crossroads from where every path seems to lead to an unknown future. The only thing that i can be sure of is that i would know if i'm going to enjoy doing something or not. h That sounds so easy, doesn't it? find what you love and do it!. sigh. If only things were that easy. Well, i'm just an inspiration away. Right now the best advice i can give to myself is this.

happy remaining-college-days !!

If you were looking for a sign THIS IS IT

Go live your life the way you want to.

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Sultry Days

Sultry Days by Shobha Dé
My rating: 2 of 5 stars

i'd give it 2.5/5 stars.
it seemed quite an interesting read in the starting. God (which was a nickname for Deb) was a character that amazed me and gripped me in the start, but as the story progresses this character gets lost somewhere in less interesting and more repulsing characters and eventually becomes one of them.
it goes splendidly till the first four chapters but after that i just dragged myself in hope to experience that 'thing' which had gripped me in the starting. i was disappointed.


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The Marriage Plot

The Marriage Plot by Jeffrey Eugenides
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

Though it ended abruptly, i enjoyed it thoroughly. The writing is engaging and the details never seem to be ‘too much’. It is no thrill but it is a page turner. The interesting turn of events that take place in lives of 3 Brown University Graduates are narrated as if the author knew exactly where to drop the story and take up another line and then exactly where to pick it up again. It sounds befuddling but one has to read the book to know.


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