Updates: Lets Catch up..

I've been gone for a while (quite a while) from here. Just excuse me for my absence. (just needed to blog away my sad thoughts elsewhere on the internet)  'cause this blog I've kept only for creative writing and my musings. i didn't want to mar this place by the short outbursts of frustrations that I've lately been flooding twitter with.

So, among other useless things I've been doing these past months is- catching up with Gossip Girl, Glee, How I Met Your Mother, The Big Bang Theory, Fringe and The Pretty Little Liars. I'm also planning to start with Game of thrones and Doctor who.

Also i've stacked up my music library with songs from Coldplay (Paradise is my personal favorite), All time Low, Adele, One direction and Paramore.
The new song from All time Low is amazing!



I had also deactivated my facebook account for all these months which i only reacitivated yesterday (and had loads of fun, but i shall blog about it some other time).

October was total hectic madness with me volunteering and participating in my college tech-fest and at that time i wished it to be over soon but i ended up missing the chaos when it did. Sweet times. Then Diwali came and went and i got to spend some quality time with my family (and also to gorge on lots of sweets and snacks).

Meanwhile, I've been reading a lot (of classics). I read Jane Eyre and Tess of d'Urbervilles. I absolutely loved reading The Fountainhead. It has put into words what i had felt about this world all these years. It has left an impression in my mind that would remain for years to come. Right now, i'm half way through The Picture of Dorian Gray, it is interesting enough for the quotes and all Oscar 'Wildeness'. And simultaneously i'm also reading Jack Kerouac's On The Road and i'm just loving it. For someone like me who's been feeling a little 'confined' in my own life and situations, the words of experience of travelling like this are like paradise, to read them is oddly liberating and it feels like pure joy to travel through Sal Paradises eyes.
Apart from classics, i read Julian Barnes's The Sense of an Ending which you could complete in one sitting. it is a part memoir and was fun to read.

I've also been taking french classes. i have now completed Delf A1 and am halfway through A2 course. It certainly feels good to learn and do something because i want to and not because i need to. It makes me feel that i own my life, which is an awesome feeling, i tell you. I will appear for Delf A2 in February. (i am able to read children's literature in french now, it is interesting).

And Exams are round the corner again..... it was hard for me to realize but i did that in an engineering students life exams are always dogging them throughout the year. We don't have exams in the year, we have short span of times squeezed in between exams when don't have to think about studies. So, i'm gonna go back to my books now (academic, this time) but hopefully i'll also be around here to keep posting stuff.

Wish y'all a Happy December ahead!

The smell of childhood

When i was little and when we used to live in a different house, we had this small garden in front where there used to be a guava tree, a cotton plant, a tulsi plant (Holy Basil), and roses: white and pink. I was about the same size as those rose bushes, so whenever i ran over to the garden i was wrapped up in that sweet fragrance of the roses. The smell of rose still makes me nostalgic. Whenever my head is heavy or i'm over-thinking stuff (most of the time which results in stress) i go out, bring my nose to a blooming rose* (in my current house we have magenta roses in our garden) and inhale a deep breath. As the magical odor fills my senses, i am able to revisit those moments of my childhood when i used to run into the old garden. That's why the roses smell of childhood to me.

*i hate how that rhymes. 

Reading..

“What’s more delightful than an evening beside the fire with a nice bright lamp and a book, listening to the wind beating against the windows? I’m absolutely removed from the world at such times. The hours go by without my knowing it. Sitting there I’m wandering in countries I can see every detail of — I’m playing a role in the story I’m reading. I actually feel I’m the characters — I live and breathe with them.”

—	Gustave Flaubert, Madame Bovary

Monsoon moments

image source: www.sodahead.com 

The smell of earth after its just rained, patter of raindrops on the window, how the sky looks, delightful, fresh and clean after showers, things reflected in puddles of water on the road, sound of 'SPLASH' whenever a car goes by, garden plants - lush green and thriving because of nourishment of rainwater, beads of water glistening and sparkling on its leaves.......
And having steamy cup of tea with spicy, crunchy 'pakoras' while its raining cats and dogs outside or having coffee while immersed in a romantic novel beside the window with raindrops trickling on the glass pane.
i just LOVE this season!!

what are your favorite moments or memories of monsoon?

The dissolving Resolve

June might be a month when normally a common Indian expects the monsoon to come and soothe their sun baked lives with its showers, but for me (and other unfortunate students of RGPV) june yells: EXAM TIME!!!

So, with exams on my head, i resolved to keep myself at bay from internet, television, novels, ipod, or any other object or activity that seems interesting to me, and keep my focus on studies.  For a record, the resolution lasted 2 days; it took me two days of my self imposed confinement with the books to break away.

 I didn't want to! No. Seriously, this time i want to enter the exam hall 'in preparation'( for a change ha!). But, (yes there's a but, as there is always a 'but') 15 minutes of studying seem like 15 hours of boredom! and  whenever i steal a look at my ipod (not deliberately! my eyes just wander that way out of habit :/), i feel like its calling me, begging me silently to come and listen songs from it. And that favorite novel that used to be in hands day and night, it looks so forlorn and lonely on the shelf, its sad because i abandoned it, it misses me :'(
 Even that stupid game on my phone seems to be mocking me, calling my attention. Slowly, i'm losing myself in their conspiracies to deviate me from my books. My resolve is dissolving.........

but hopefully i would overcome and this is what i'd do the whole month :STUDY

Six feet under screams

what does one do when one is in constant conflict with oneself, one's own existence?
have one's mind ailing and soul weeping? have this dying current of consciousness, with its heated blistered ebb and last shreds of frustration oozing away like smoke, leaving behind a residue of meaningless life?
these are the mere ramblings of a mind deeply plagued by unhappiness.

Moments

the deep,fresh and intense red of this rose

does the moment speak something to you?

A mere whisper of innocence 

it is to me,

one could reach out and smell its sweet fragrance

and devour one's eyes on the water droplets adorning it

past the bud and on its way to bloom

it's pure, sweet

and yet a powerful symbol